It's been a long time since I've last posted, and though I hope this 'coming back' of mine should be enjoying,,, it seems not so...
Well, first off, two months have passed and I can really feel that hecking school pressure. But who does put that on me? My mom? My dad? They say no. The teachers? Perhaps. ME? That's the answer. Not just ME, but a mentality that has long been living in ME. The society, the trend, it all makes it.
(anlabo ng first paragraph ko ano,, ako rin nalabuan eh... sinulat ko lang kasi,, para na akong sasabog e.. haha)
One thing is for sure-I do not enjoy my first quarter in third year.
Why?
Am not doing well these days, yet I can't blame anyone or anything (though I wish to blame ******s and C********) but myself. The academe hasn't been in good terms with me right now, and it saddens me a lot. Not because I'm GC, but because I'm not being so GC anymore... [magulo ba,,, ganito kasi yun] When I was in first and second year, I can say I really did my best to excel in school and the fruit was somehow visible. I wanted to see up to what I can do, and up to what extent I can push myself, but now is a different case. Nowadays, I care less about my falling grades and it bothers me. I really do not know what has happened [and what is happening], and up to now, I am still unsure with the paths and actions I should take. I think I need a personal counselor, but since time really is gold in our case, that would be impossible. Good thing the Up Above is ready to catch me when am falling.
Last year, and last last year, I barely studied [for studying for me is reading what is needed to be studied in school just before the teacher arrives]. Now is a different case. I do not know if it's just me, but I am really stressed with all the things we are required to comply to. Lagi ko ngang sinasabi na bugbog na bugbog na ako. Ikaw ba ganun? Is it because of the school I decided to enter, or the section I belong, or the teachers that makes us do many tasks, or is it merely me and no other?
Sa lahat ng tulad ko,,, magkakaramay tayo... Pero naiintindihan niyo ba sinasabi ko? Kung oo, hindi ko alam kung magpapasalamat ba ako o maaawa sa ating mga sarili. Sa mga hindi nakakaintindi pero feeling nila ay makakarelate sila, contact niyo ako, baka nga yun yun. Sa mga hindi nakakaintindi at feeling nila ay hindi nila nararasanan 'yan, CONGRATS!, ang swerte mo...
Though I may want to elaborate these things, I still need some time to collate the scattered thoughts in my mind and the questions that has been screaming in my heart for so long a time...
Sa mga nagbabasa ng blog ko,, haha,, pinapabasa ko kayo ng sapilitan alam ko,, kaya salamat... Share kayo kung ano gusto niyo sabihin kasi, uhm, yun ang purpose ng blog ko, hindi para mang-enganyo na magaling ka sa english or tagalog grammar (obviously, hindi talaga ako magaling diba), pero para maipahiwatig ng malaya ang gusto mong sabihin...
Next time ulit...
Well, first off, two months have passed and I can really feel that hecking school pressure. But who does put that on me? My mom? My dad? They say no. The teachers? Perhaps. ME? That's the answer. Not just ME, but a mentality that has long been living in ME. The society, the trend, it all makes it.
(anlabo ng first paragraph ko ano,, ako rin nalabuan eh... sinulat ko lang kasi,, para na akong sasabog e.. haha)
One thing is for sure-I do not enjoy my first quarter in third year.
Why?
Am not doing well these days, yet I can't blame anyone or anything (though I wish to blame ******s and C********) but myself. The academe hasn't been in good terms with me right now, and it saddens me a lot. Not because I'm GC, but because I'm not being so GC anymore... [magulo ba,,, ganito kasi yun] When I was in first and second year, I can say I really did my best to excel in school and the fruit was somehow visible. I wanted to see up to what I can do, and up to what extent I can push myself, but now is a different case. Nowadays, I care less about my falling grades and it bothers me. I really do not know what has happened [and what is happening], and up to now, I am still unsure with the paths and actions I should take. I think I need a personal counselor, but since time really is gold in our case, that would be impossible. Good thing the Up Above is ready to catch me when am falling.
Last year, and last last year, I barely studied [for studying for me is reading what is needed to be studied in school just before the teacher arrives]. Now is a different case. I do not know if it's just me, but I am really stressed with all the things we are required to comply to. Lagi ko ngang sinasabi na bugbog na bugbog na ako. Ikaw ba ganun? Is it because of the school I decided to enter, or the section I belong, or the teachers that makes us do many tasks, or is it merely me and no other?
Sa lahat ng tulad ko,,, magkakaramay tayo... Pero naiintindihan niyo ba sinasabi ko? Kung oo, hindi ko alam kung magpapasalamat ba ako o maaawa sa ating mga sarili. Sa mga hindi nakakaintindi pero feeling nila ay makakarelate sila, contact niyo ako, baka nga yun yun. Sa mga hindi nakakaintindi at feeling nila ay hindi nila nararasanan 'yan, CONGRATS!, ang swerte mo...
Though I may want to elaborate these things, I still need some time to collate the scattered thoughts in my mind and the questions that has been screaming in my heart for so long a time...
Sa mga nagbabasa ng blog ko,, haha,, pinapabasa ko kayo ng sapilitan alam ko,, kaya salamat... Share kayo kung ano gusto niyo sabihin kasi, uhm, yun ang purpose ng blog ko, hindi para mang-enganyo na magaling ka sa english or tagalog grammar (obviously, hindi talaga ako magaling diba), pero para maipahiwatig ng malaya ang gusto mong sabihin...
Next time ulit...
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